AARRGGHH!!!!
lyf has been v.stressing lately.. so down..dunoe wts de cos of it..

2dae mr seah's laz dae..de teacher hue tot me chem.. maan..gonna miss him sey..
OH..muz built a house fer it cos its married n put de dog outside... it mins tt de OH muz haf a breket n put de number outside de breket..
haizz.. gonna mis it man.. hehe.. though it lame n farnie..

tmr is mr chee's laz dae.. hiazz..didn't lyk him at fez..but he seems tu be veri fun...
gonna mis his 'taadaa' after almst everi qus he finish explain..

den gt pst js nw..MATH LAGI!!
stress siotzz..da laa da lame tk buat bende2 nie..
siol akh.. aku stress rabak gilerr sey.. pastu bende2 atas meje sumer jatoh..s in aku jatohkn laa..swep everitin off..clz ws so noisy.. biseng gileer..ngan si sherly memekak..ngan si ilyas menanyi mcm bdk nanyok kat blakang.. mekak siotzz..

wahh..laky tt mizie mxg me ydae..kasik aku giler sikit..haha.. lau dier tk mxg.. aku da msk WB agaknyer...hehe...

leerr..nk slp la hai..
someone some where make me kerazziee!!

Objection (Tango)

It's not her fault that she's so irresistible
But all the damage she's caused isn't fixable
Every twenty seconds you repeat her name
But when it comes to me you don't care
If I'm alive or dead

So objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away

Next to her cheap silicon I look minimal
That's why in front of your eyes I'm invisible
But you gotta know small things also count
You better put your feet on the ground
And see what it's about

Objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way na na na na…

I wish there was a chance for you and me
I wish you couldn't find a place to be
Away from here

This is pathetic and sardonic
It's sadistic and psychotic
Tango is not for three
Was never meant to be

But you can try it
Rehearse it
Or train like a horse
But don't you count on me
Don't you count on me boy

Objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
And you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away

fark..
yea. i noe.. wen tu tok tu ms liew.. it helped..
bt everitym cm bac hm..
laa..nvm la.. saket hati ajeer..

hah..prob..one afte d ader..
basket seyy dorg tad pat kls.. U GUYS SHUD NOE WT IM TOKIN ABT!!
farkin seyy..its not abt de toilet.. its abt in de cls tt one.. durin eng..nak bobual pn relek akh..jgn obvious sgt.. korg nie pon.. aku da la tgh tuut skrg.. senang heart pain.. but du u ppl even bother?? i oso donoe.. arh..

U.K's
Sebak

Bergenang... airmata ini
Sebak... sudah namun tidak jatuh jua
Menangis... cumalah hatiku
Senyum... tawa hanya tutup duka lara

Belum terubat kelukaan
Telahpun berganti kekasihmu
Andai itu yang kau inginkan
Tak dapat ku halang niat hatimu

Dalam banyak yang engkau temui
Dia pilihanmu... oh...
Jika insan lain tak mengapa
Tapi... sahabatku... oh...

Apa yang amat kukesalkan
Kau seolah-olah sengaja mempamerkan dia
Padaku... sebaknya...
Sambil kau menjeling... padaku...

... y u might ask.. erm.. i oso donoe... teehee..

FARKIN PEOPLE!!!
i hate em.. in cls js now.. tt freakin teacher pulled ma ear jus bcos i smilled wen i got a farkin xra mark fer de reap..wtf?? issit rong tu b hapie wen u ern n xra mark?? even if it still mins u still fail?? not tu me cos im still searchin fer more marks!!! wt a sickenning teacher.. i felt so ashamed..n so hurt at de same tym..i felt lyk cryin.. i noe i sound so emo.. but de red tide is comin i gess.. jus dun be tuu harsh will u??
AARRGGHH!!! WTEVER!!

den dere's tis freakin parents of mine.. i noe la dey de ones hue brought e up.. BUT WIF NOT ENUF LURF N CARE N BOND!! I owas feel lyk i was being picked up at some 5-fut-wae or some unknown street..or basicly not deir child!
its lyk im owas rong.. owas tu b blamed..owas de bad one.. but one ting fer sure.. almots everytym ma mum ask me tu du sumtin.. i wud...
haiiz..

n issit rong fer me tu cri? if it is.. den wt are tears given by de creators of human kind fer??

I WAS JUST CRIN N U CALLED ME N IDIOT??
WANA NOE Y I CRIED?? U NEVE WANA CARE..DUN BOTHER TELLIN U..
u r jus some freakin mader hue wants me tu die! u wanted tu knock ma head tu de wall rite?? tt's wt u said..y didn't u du it? don't u wana c me daed?? ain't it better tt wae? won't ur world haf more peace wen im gone?? i jus hate u fer tis u noe? yes i hate u!!
aarrgghh!! i jus hate tis! im so unfairly treated..haizz.. commuist has more fairnes den tis..!!

n u r ma freakin irritatin fader hu owas discourage me tu do tings tt i wana du.. u r de person hu owas disagree wif everitin.. OPEN UP UR MIND!! AARRGGHH!!

AARRGGHH!!! GET ME OUTHERE!!!

fun sak nari!!! bt de events hapen afte skul akh.. cls ws borin arr..

de lst period was MT..afte tt we--> me azuu aqi in n aten stayed n cls..
fun seyy.. sing sing.. gendang gendang..shout actally... hehe but veri fun akh..
den dewey came n hid frm kenneth.. donoe fer wt..haha..aniwae.. afte singing..erm..shoutin..n bangin.. i went tu c ms liew..n fatin decided tu c ms waheedah to take her eng cls test..

went tuu canteen..tok tok tu Ms Liew.. noe wt? i find her veri caring n understanding.. she lyk gt lots of advise seyy.. gud akh.. den nxt fatin's turn.. we -->azuu in aqi n me..toked bad bout heer seyy.. haha.. bad ekh?? biase akh.. den we toked bout sec 1 daezz..how i mis baingin de table usin de bottles which were lyk placed at de upper most part of de shelf..plyin bowlin wif de bottles..haha... dere ws once wen mr singh came tu cls n scolded us abt de bottles n asked us to trow em away..but if we wana kip it..we haf to make sure its clean..VERI.. den on de spot de guys took de bottles,wen tu de toilet n washed em..WOAH!! tt was lyk so kul! cls spirit veri strong akh? gud seyy..

den intended tu walk home wif aqi.. i min.. walk wif her den take de bus frm de bustop near her house..instead.. i went tu her house n studied fer tmr's chem cls test.. best seyy uma dierr.. donoe wts so best la.. but find it fun stayin at a fwen's house wen ur suppose tu go hm.. haha
fez we ate.. den i go solat while she mandi..den we revise..tok..tok n tok.. revise again.. n i solat again.. n revise abit lagi.. den..OMG!! it 8 pm liao..haha.. packed ma beg n went off..aqi accompanied me tu de bustop n waited wif me till de bus came.. while watin..she asked y i nvr join de WSSS idol.. WSSS idol?? is she havin a fever?? me?? NOWAE!! i nvr haf de confidence to sing in front of de cls.. let alone de teachers.. judges i min...haizz no no no.. but shud i??
adoi! y? wts wif de wsss idol? tk best jek.. hah.. den qi wanted tu contineu her storie..but de bus came..alahai!! so gta contineu tmr..wander wts its abt..hehe

wteve tt u noe abt me.. kip it tu urslf..pls.. dun tell me..neither shud u tell aders oso..
im beggin u.. pls..
n to him*.. if u noe.. stop bein soo kind.. i noe it sounds stupid but.. tt's how it shud be..

WSSS idol??haha crapts siolzz... im sure tt Chan's gona go in it..dhur!! i hope he makes it..
naq sae she's joining..wel.. i wish de best of luck ferr al u peps out dere who ar readin ma entries n is joinin de WSSS idol!!

hah..kana stay bac js nw..bcs of de clzrum..dirty n in such a mess..
we cleaned de cupboard..shud i sae clear up?? it was so empty..nth in it excpt fer dust..i hope ms Liew's happie bout it.. YEAH FER 3C!! it was so freakin clean! no more decorations which were not nided..de floor was swept clean..not much dust left..GREAT JOB!! tt's all i cn sae..

Ms Liew den toked tu us bout ur next CIP..ill b at an old folks' home..bestnyerr!! we'll b entertainin dem..haha..ms liew sae tt mayb we cn sing ferr dem or smtin..bestneyr! tk saba seyy...

bila rinduu..

dikeheningan malam,termenungku berseorang
tak lena mata dipejam
terdengar suara terngiang
suara merdu yg di sayang
bagai kau didepan mata
ku capai tapi tak kena
sukarnya memendam rasa
ingin ku luahkan kata

bila rindu,terkenang mu sayang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu,sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi sebati hati ini

jauh angan ku lena,
ku rasa kita bersama,kau bawaku ke sana
ke alam kisah yg lama,kenangan di dlm jiwa.
.bila tersedar semula,disisiku kau tiada
sukarnya ku pendam rasa,ingin ku luahkan semua ooooouuu

bila rindu,terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu,sentuhan mu ku terasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi sebati hati ini

sesunguhnya kita mesti
wujudkan sefahaman dan hormat menghormati
ikhlas,kasih,sabar insyallah kita akan bertemu semula

awan yg mencas semesta
menyampaikan pesan kesunyian kanda sendiri
kesepian yg menyelubungi hari hari ku
disajikan doa2 ku kerana rindu
yg menanti kau dtg dan pergi seperti mimpi2 ku,fantasiku,
bukan dongeng lagi sayu kedengaran
disisi cuping,
disetiap corong,lorong,yg lohong
benar!ku tak bohong,bila hati menyanyi..

bila rindu,terkenang mu syg terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
*ooohhohhoo*
aku merindu,sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwa selubungi,jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi batas
oh bila rindu,terkenang mu sayang.,
ku terasa sayusyahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayangaku rindu,
sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu *ku rindukan sentuhanmu*
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,jiwa ini,
bawa ku dlm pelangi melepasi batas diri ini..

AI HATE MA EYES!!!!
haizz..realie sey.. oways lyk tis.. tuu sensetip..

aniwae..went tuu madrasa js nw..same ting..neba pay attention..tok tok..laf laf..
but fun siket akh tad..xcept fer tt laika kido.. menyakitkn hati atie jek..teehee
kitorg cite2 psl antu.. haha mepeks pn ader.. its abt camp pastu psl uma yg terbar..haunted la kononnyerr.. haizz..lau ice ader tad lagik fun agaknyer..
afte de madrasa..we decide tu stay bac..blaja ngaji..fun.. de 5 of us.. pls laika 6 leer..n anader gurl frm donoe which cls..v.quiet... diam2 jek at de coner.. afte tt aku pln nk tinggalkn laika..cos dowan go hm wif her..*jahat ekh aku..teehee* but she belen2 ajek ikot..haizz..kene buat dose plk.. i told her im goin tu teach mai math at de laiberii..n i noe she haf tuu go hm cos she gt smtins goin on..HAHA *jahatnyer akuu..* so she went n ride de bus w/out me.. kahkha.. happie aku..kahkah..
ouh ya.. saw him* js nw!! de ustaz ws lyk openin de door n i lyk saw de glims of him*..perr lagi.. happiee gileerr laa..

hiazz..but how m ai gona face him in cls tmr?? esp if he has found out??
mati laa hamba..

Fida! aten! aqi/naqi!! azuu!! n all those yg da tau.. pls keep it away frm him!!pls pls pls... lup u all alotalot!!

confession: though i hate ma eyes..sometyms.. i still luf maslf..most of de tyms..

was readin ma dairies js nw..ouh hw i miss de old daezz..
i mis ma sec one daez realie much..lukin at de holez bside de clzrum.. if u were in 1a u shud noe wt i min..
i mis de fites tt we had..haizz.. now it dosen't exist nimore..
wteve abt tt oradie lah.. let de past be memories tu be kenang-ed.. teehee

went to JB js nw..pegi tempah baju.. untk aper pn tk tau.. i min raye is lyk soo far away..rite??
bt i lyk it..de auntie dere is friendly..ader kuceng.. dulu kecik2.. skrg sumer da besa sey..shud c dem wen dey were small..shoo kiute..

shud i let go a not?haizz... i gess fida noes owadie..alahai..i gess its obvious liao..
but i didnt noe tt he was tt bad.. haizz.. biase la.. lau suke cumer nmpk yg baek jek..
bt cnnt judge him u noe..he luks nice..he's kind.. bt he does stuffs tt i dun lyk..bt shud tt b sumtin tt affects me lykin him?? smone tell me smtin!!
arrgghh!!

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...

haiezz..tts de situation..rite nw..veri sad u noe..
smone,smwhere, smhow..
hlp me pls...

hate em.. hate em sooooo much!! arrgghh!!!!
its lyk soo un fair..dey du tis n tat n tis n tat..
dey got money.. i dun..
yet dey ask me tu get those stuffs tt i wan maslf..
issit fair??
NO!!DHURR!!
haizz...

den lyk tt guy.. ouh ma god..
sickenning seh!!
depan aku lagik dorg uat bende bodo tuu...
gif up..gif up change ur mind set..
haizz.. he's bad.. veri bad..
jus let go...

Nurul Atikah bte Sari
as in da IC/BC
Atie is seriously preferred
turninged 7-teen
4-teen december 9-teen9ty
mood-swing--er
grps; wsss; rp-pharmaceutical sci