yea.i've got daddy's fone.


hehe. it ol started wen he sent his fone fer service. sumthin rong abt de ringgin vol.den he was suppose tu pic it up de nxt dae. bt had tu werk. n den at tyn need tu drive taxi. part-tymer.


i had skul de nxt dae. so i wen tu pic it up fer skul afte skul. den used it. he used ma fone.wen cum bac frm driving, veri late oladie, i slp liao. den wen he go werk, veri early, haven't wake up. den nxt dae, wen he cum home frm werk, nvr saeanithin. so 2dae i asked him if i can haf it, since ma elder n yngr sis has cam fone.


n so he said yupps.afta tt i wen tu www.m1.com.sg. tu apply fer MMS. yea bcs im usin pre-paid mah. den i've gt MMS liao. so i tried tu send a pic tu ma e-mail. yea it werks. den i asked aten tu send me n MMS tu make sure i can oso receive em. n i cud. uii. besnye.


n further more, i've gt $50 free.bes kan bes kann.??
wuhuu.!!


ouh freak. skul's gonna re-open soon. shits. n imma b a sec 4 student. wata freak. i crnt believe tt imma be a sec 4 student.! ish.!bt de best thin is tt imma be a senior.!bess nyee.!!


okie okie. unhapie skul reopenin.!


shit. wt am i shitting abt.??

i lyked you den.
im hatin u now. trin tu.


i crnt belif tt u actualie lied tu me.
u mite nt tink tt is a biggie. bt i du. serious. veri BIGG issue.


u wana noe y.?
cus i kinda trust u.
u wer de one i turned tu wen im down.
u wer de one i turn tu wen i need cheerin up.
u wer de one. OLWAYS de one hue made me laugh til ma tummie hurts, til tears roll dwn ma cheeks.
i lyked tt. ol of t.
nt fergtin de cute n swit gud nyt mxges.


for ol of tt. i lyked u.
n now bcs ur lie. i haf tu hate u. i am forced tu hate u.
is tt even fair.?


now i even hate maslf for hating u cus you made me hate you.
du u even noe how much hatred tt contains.?


SHIT.! now i even hate maslf for makin maslf confuse n makin maslf be in such a difficult position n trin hard tu hate u.


FREAK.! Y DA HE*L.!?


..I.HATE.U.BT.I..LUV.U.I.CRNT.STOP.THINKIN.OF.U..

three type of ppl i hate de most.

one) liars. freakin liars hu lie tu de freakin core

two) smokers. smokers hue smoke their lungs out till it is unuseable, n make aders cough lyk hell n killing aders wif de 2nd hand smoke. n polluting de earth.!

three) betrayers. hue actualie r part-tym lairs tu me. promises u stuff n nver turn tru tu em.


n so i finally i foun de someone hue is de ultimate hate-able person in ma list. i didnt realise it den. bt now i du.

i asked u once.
"Do you smoke.?"
"No i don't."

den i met up wif u, cus i asked fer ur buk. den i saw u smokin. one n two checked.
u smoke n u lied tu me abt not smokin.

n bfore tt, we asked u out. u said okie, u will c how. bt ur 'c how' is sooo fake cus u kept on sain no tis, no tt, i've gt tis, i've got tt, i crn't make it, im not free on tis date. blah blah. dot dot dot.

n so u lie. u smoke. n i consider tt s betraying.

de one i once lyked. n tot i wud lurve, is now de ultimate hateable person in ma list.

n yes if u r reading. i olmost lurved u den. n ol those nicks. those stuffs r describing u.

n yah. nxt xmas.? not funnie.!
ATBAT I.HATE.YOU period.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FREAKIN LIL SIS.!

heh. blh lupe nk post nie dulu.

heh tts her. de 'coloured' one.

luk. aint tt cute.
i dun realie noe y im puttin tiis up.
bt i tink its cute. hah.

ol abt tis samsung player. nice nice.

de covers can change. changeable covers.!
ders radio n recording.
ders SRS WOW 3D sound. somethin abt a 3d-able sound system.
n u can dnload songs of multiple format. e.g wma, mp3, audio, ASF, Ogg.
*heh dunnoe wts tt*
has a voice recorder wif high quality.
u can hang it. n olso clip it.
it has 3 different screen savers.
10 hoursplaybac.
built-in-battery charged by usin de comp.

it is da samsung YP-F1.

yea. nice nice.
can i haf one.?

heh.

such a sad yet joyful bfdae ydae.

khad. tnk u fer being de fez tu mxg me at 00.03am haha.

heh though it was jing yi hue mxged me frst. on de 4th. heh. u cute gurl.

den it was aten. den kak N den mizzie. den ms liew.supprised. den faris.heh.

tt was frm de smses.

gt testies too. heh.
*i feel lyk a small lil gurl tellin everyone tis. n being xited over it*

bt den of curs i wud du tis.
cus i tot no one wud bother mxgin me.n wishin. n send testis. n wish tru de msn.

wic ever wae u did it.
I LURF U FER REMEMBERING..! heh.

smses.testies.instant mxges tru de MSN.
but no prazzies.! heh.

but ma dearie mummy treated me tu a meal at pizza hut.!
hehe best kan..??

yep tts ol.

yea no party tis year. sry khad. i was short of cash.
really short of cash.

no gettin money frm grannie.

no gettin prazzies.

no gettin supprising kols.

heh. but i loved it aniwae. cus i luf de ones hue still care.
n though i tot tt they won't. deep in side i noe dey wud js pop out somwhere.somehow.

went tu naq's blog. saw de pics. hate em even more.

though im sain tt im olryt. bt tis post mite sae it ol.

smile. jus smile. bt nvr mean it.
ima du ma ic soon. so no more pushin me ard wif tt phrase.
i freakinly hate it.

n so abt de pics. its so freakinly over.
YES OF CURS IM MAD AT OL OF YOU.!
wt de freakin hell haf i done rong.?
sick.!!

ive been wonderin. n still wonderin.
r u peeps still de same ppl hum i met n became fwens wif n wen thru ol those ups n downs wif since sec 1. 2003.?

how i hate lukin bac.
how i envy de past. de sec 1 yr.
how freakinly sad i m thinkin me bein veri veri sad n rote tt piece wic took such a lng tym till ckgu asked me tu read it infrnt of de cls.
n how freakin difficult fer me tu search fer de courage n at de same time trin tu stand de tears wic wer goin tu drip wif everi word i said. n REALIE MIN.
how freakinly difficult it is fer me tu fergt tt u WERE veri close tu me.

ape.? korg sumer menyingkirkan aku js bcs of tt gurl.?
pls la ekh. korg pon rapat ngan dier pe.!

nak menitis airmata aku teringat kan ape korg uat.
korg tk terase bise ke.?
perit sekali.

bkn tk menitis.
de biase da.
lagi2 bler pat2 hari raye tu. bt i noe i crnt turn bac de hands of de clock.
n so i jus haf tu let go.

n i rmmbred tt she said tt u said tt i onie go bac tu u wen i haf probs wif aten.
abeh korg.? lau hapie2 suke2 tk der prob. tolak aku ke tepi. bler ader prob cari2 aku. abeh bler da okie balek tendang aku.. kekadang tendangan korg tu kuat sekali. sakit sekali. teramat sakit sampai blh masok icu.

i gess tts ol i can bear wif ryt now.




okie i admit ders tu much drama in it.

hehe.

luk ma beg. duh
nice.?
haha

de dae b4 ydae.
i dremt tt u n her wer supose tu haf a slp ovr at ma hse.
funnie how we slpt in de same rum. diff beds though.

wen i woke up IN ma dream bth of u wer gone.
bt i ws mor worried abt u.
so i kol ur cell. ur friend picked it up n sae tt ur nt ard.

n so i waited by ma fone.
hoping tt u wud return a kol.
afta a while u rply a txt. sain tt u wer ok n nt tu worrie abt u.

den i woke up FROM ma dream.
de feelin of still wantin tu search of u ws still der.
wt does tt imply.?

funnie how i tot tt u n her ran away tugdr. n asked a random smone tu pick up ma kol. den js rply a txt cus u dnt wana tok tu me.

haizz..

funnie hoe now everithin tt hapens involves de bth of u.

i js wish tt tis wud end here.
n tt ma mind wud be set free frm olways thinkin of u.

Nurul Atikah bte Sari
as in da IC/BC
Atie is seriously preferred
turninged 7-teen
4-teen december 9-teen9ty
mood-swing--er
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