im i ment tu be alone in tis werld.?
its so huge.
happy tymes are nvr constant. olways remain as memories.
saddness surrounding, nvr givin space tu hapiness.

y was i left untold. un-talked-to.?
y did i give so much, nvr xpect anithin in return. esp tis.! lonlyness. sadness. darkness.

i mised it ol. how i wish i had studie harder, not slacking, not dropin frm a to b to c.!
maybe then, u will not haf left me.
maybe then, i wont be alone.

how i mis de warm huggs.
de comforts. de everything.
every single thing.

frm de misunderstandings, to de fights, to de meetings, to de forgivings, to de hand shakings, to de warm cuddly hugs, to de tears, to de teary smile, n every single detail i might mis out.

maybe i've done something rong, but did not realise it.
maybe its veri obvious in ur eyes, but i saw nothing.

i onie saw ur hand fading away, no longer there, no longer close.

tell me my flaws. point out my mistakes. correct my rongs.

'y was i left out.?'
tis ques will olways be in ma mind wen eve i accidentalie go tu ur blog, see de hapieness.

SHITS.! I HATE MY LIFE.!!!

nothing seems tu be good.
nothing is ever good.

ol i cn sae is tt i mis u guis.
i mis de fun, de fites, de tears, de smyls, de huggs,
de EVERYTHING.

n tis is ol veri2 true.
its not bcs im fitin wif her tt im lookin bac at u guys.
i realie mis tt tym.


rock RAPPER sista sesat, i miss u ppl tu da max.!

hahas.
well lykin you was last yr.
hehe. hehe.


serious lykin you was last yr.
shits. im confessing.
but it doesn't matter cus it was last yr. haha.


okieokie u cn c tt im seriously highlighting tt it was seriously last yr.
okie fine enuf.


n de mis kol was seriously out of funn n joi.
tgk how u wud respond.
so lemah in klass. haha
lau kene pakse pon jgn la ampai tk de intrest langsong.
ko dtg skul, bende concrete yg ko pijak tu pon doa kan ko tau.! aah. lau aku tk silap ah.
lau silap ampoon la yee.
cenyumm la ikit dlm klass tu boi.!
hehe. apela saje korg niee.


okie fine2 aku tk kacau ko la.
peace ah.!
hehe.


sorie ye Irfan. =p

look. the situation is back again.
fatin being herself.
her sialan-self.


haizz. i jus dun noe y.
i jus dun freakin noe y.
y issit that afte a freakin situation n i noe tt i shud get away frm her, i dun.
instead i got a whole lot closer.
shits.!
it seems lyk she is a megnet, im some metelic stuff wich is stuck tu the freakin megnet.


shit la.! i hate u tu da maxes max.! arrgghh..!!
i hate u tu de corest core. if ders possibly anie.
laah.! de point is. I HATE YOU.!!!


Ms Liew, can i haf an isolated sit in class so tt i will not ok alot n concentrate better.?
Puhlese.!!

I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HER TU MAXES MAXES MAXES MAAAAAAAAAAX.!!!!!


fcuk off bitch.!
bcs of u my self esteem is low.!


aku diperkecilkan kerana cahayaku yang tdk sekuat cahaya KAU yang berada disebelahku.
cahaya KAU yang amat kuat membutakan mataku ini.
ku sangka KAU kawan tapi sebenarnya lawan yang hanya menggunakan ku untuk kepentingan diri KAU sendiri.!


aku ditipu, aku tertipu, tetapi tdk akan tertipu lagi.
aku betekad untuk menjauhi diri dari KAU.

ouh mi god king.! so soo sooo sweet.! he placed a rose on every ghurl's table. sweet ryt.?
aww.! soo sweet.


but den i gta find out tt it was ment tu b a prank. he was suppose tu buy black roses, n give it tu da galz. black roses. BLACK ROSES.! can u imagine.?? black means bad.! how evil. haha. yet sweet. aww.! i was soo touched.


n ma deariee fwen jing yi gave me a lolipop. cute lil gurl. aww so soo swit dae tu dae.


haha. actualie not.! wana noe y.? wel bcs earlie in de mornin, ders a freakin lizard, BLACK lizard on ma table.! how terok was tt tu srt de dae. it freaked de hell out of me. hehe. its small, yet fast, veri fast.
haha.


n du u noe tt on tis dae 55 yrs ago Singapore was taken away from de British by Japan.? yepps.! its de dae wen Lt Adnan died n British sgined de papers tu leave S'pore.
so i gess its not tt gud tu celebrate valentine's dae. how sad.


okie kul. now i've gtg. homewrks.!

vince -- andai kau tahu


Pernahkah kau tahu
Hatiku pada mu
Adakah ini hanya ilusiku
Membuaikan diri
Impi lena ku sendiri
Apalah dayaku tanpa dirimu
Mendambakan kebahagiaan
Dan biarlah ku disini
Yang pernah mencintai mu
Ruang hati
Sepi tanpa disinari
Haruskah ia terjadi
Mengharapkan kau disisi
Segalanya pasti
Andai kau mengerti
pernah dikau kusayangi




trisha -- how do i


I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul




uk's -- sebak


Bergenang airmata ini
Sebak sudah namun tidak jatuh jua
Menangis cumalah hatiku
Senyum tawa hanya tutup duka lara
Belum terubat kelukaan




kelly clarkson -- i hate myslf ferlosin u


Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you




siti -- untuk selamanya


Andainya kau tahu
Ku mencintaimu
Ku pasti dirimu
Tak akan tega melukaiku
Sampai bila akan begini
Menyimpan rahsia hati
Walau cinta masih di hati
Dan airmata menemani
Langkahku yang semakin tak pasti
Membawa kelukaan ini
Bila sampai waktu nanti
Ku harap kau kan mengerti
Mungkin bahagia atau derita
Takdir ku terima




n tts that. i wished tt i wud met u at NP. n freakinly, i did. how was tt possible.? nothin i wished fer ever happen. i was so shocked wen someone kloed me. it turned out tu b u. haha how supprising was tt.? bt tt wsnt ol. i wont eloborate. mayb im rong. if i were tu read tis again, n i rmmbr, let it be. bt if i dont, fergt it.


n i realise tt ur not worth it. a bad boi, go into ol tis home crapts, wonder if tt gurl noe abt it, or mayb it was jas a big FAT lie, js tu gt de story more INTERESTING. freak! n yes i was interested tu noe. i rmmbr it. nt bcs i read de chatlogs, bt bcs it was js too un-take-away-able frm my mind. n i gess qyia was ryt. ur looks, funnie. haha. n u still haf tt dimply face.


how m i suppose tu frgt ol tt.?


if u were tu ever read tis, n if u were tu ever noe abt tis, wana laugh.? go ahead n laugh. i wun even care. cus i noe tt im tring tu fergt u. n i noe it will be paid off one of these days. n dun tell me if u noe. hints.? maybe. bt encouragement says no. so dont. n dont u du ol this craps again. i hate u n i hate myslf fer doing tis.


n fer ol tis crapts, i so soo soooo nid tu go tu escape. cla, u caused it ol. is YOUR FREAKIN FAULT.! ATAT. ur name. if im not mistaken. ferst alphabet of ur freakin name. fader name oso ah ithink if its correct.


i h a t e u n i t w i l l n v r b d e s a m e . . .

Nurul Atikah bte Sari
as in da IC/BC
Atie is seriously preferred
turninged 7-teen
4-teen december 9-teen9ty
mood-swing--er
grps; wsss; rp-pharmaceutical sci