Sunday, April 30, 2006 ; 8:03 PM♥
wuhuu.! im bac ppl.!!
im fine, brought ma odt dere.
ouh yea i wen tu msia bcs of de religion cls 'field trip'
it was ubber funn.
everythin was great.!
n yes i did slaughter de chicken.!
was so soo afraid at fez, but i told maslf tt i have tu du it, n so i was de third gurl tu slaughter de chicken. de blood was, uuuhh.
n i was almost sick.!
de highest temp i took was 37.3
but i had caring fwens n teachers arnd me.!
i luv ol of u.!!
we were suppose tu du area cleanin js now, in da morning before goin home, bt i ddnt, i reported sick.
n yes i realie was sick.
headach, gastric. n i ddnt slp at nyt.
was super damn cramped. no space to lay dwn. haha.
so instead, i was talking tu ustazah laila's son, muhammad, lydia, dyna, de super high irfan, kikin, anis and nadzihar.
so funn.
made new fwens, amongst wich were, tacha, lydia, ida, fizzi, shafiq [power ranger.! *haha]
dey were supper funn ppl.
tnx shafiq fer de power ranger song wich so enlightened me durin de nite walk wen i was super giddy.
tnx fizul [hafizul fizzi fizul are de same ppl] fer de panadol.
tnx mai fer de panadol too.
tnx irfan fer makin me laugh wif ur super deep voice wen u were super high.! haha.!!
tnx muhammad fer de stoopid stories in de early mornin, ustazah's son too, is his name Bi.? haha.
lala.
i bought an adidas tee. dunnoe, i tink its nice, a gurl kinda cutting.
bought a black tee wich cost onie RM1o. tts S$5 onie.! its black wif a printed butterfly, n a pair of long black pants.
n ol of tis is bcs of mai.! if its not fer her, we wuddnt haf gone into tt sports shop n i wudnt haf bought tt shirt. n den we had little tyme left, went into anader shop, tts wher i bought de tee n pants. no tym to go fitting rum, so jus took de biggest size i cud grab, go tu de counter n paid. haha. dere's tis skurt, i tink its nice, but ddnt tink i had animore cash.
den we went home.!
D to da D, D to da I, D to da A.
hahahaha. D to da I, wat a nick on msn,
'im sry i crnt b wif u bcs i care abt her' [bt i short-form-ed it]
de kerazie pics wud be up on ma nxt post.!!
im fine, brought ma odt dere.
ouh yea i wen tu msia bcs of de religion cls 'field trip'
it was ubber funn.
everythin was great.!
n yes i did slaughter de chicken.!
was so soo afraid at fez, but i told maslf tt i have tu du it, n so i was de third gurl tu slaughter de chicken. de blood was, uuuhh.
n i was almost sick.!
de highest temp i took was 37.3
but i had caring fwens n teachers arnd me.!
i luv ol of u.!!
we were suppose tu du area cleanin js now, in da morning before goin home, bt i ddnt, i reported sick.
n yes i realie was sick.
headach, gastric. n i ddnt slp at nyt.
was super damn cramped. no space to lay dwn. haha.
so instead, i was talking tu ustazah laila's son, muhammad, lydia, dyna, de super high irfan, kikin, anis and nadzihar.
so funn.
made new fwens, amongst wich were, tacha, lydia, ida, fizzi, shafiq [power ranger.! *haha]
dey were supper funn ppl.
tnx shafiq fer de power ranger song wich so enlightened me durin de nite walk wen i was super giddy.
tnx fizul [hafizul fizzi fizul are de same ppl] fer de panadol.
tnx mai fer de panadol too.
tnx irfan fer makin me laugh wif ur super deep voice wen u were super high.! haha.!!
tnx muhammad fer de stoopid stories in de early mornin, ustazah's son too, is his name Bi.? haha.
lala.
i bought an adidas tee. dunnoe, i tink its nice, a gurl kinda cutting.
bought a black tee wich cost onie RM1o. tts S$5 onie.! its black wif a printed butterfly, n a pair of long black pants.
n ol of tis is bcs of mai.! if its not fer her, we wuddnt haf gone into tt sports shop n i wudnt haf bought tt shirt. n den we had little tyme left, went into anader shop, tts wher i bought de tee n pants. no tym to go fitting rum, so jus took de biggest size i cud grab, go tu de counter n paid. haha. dere's tis skurt, i tink its nice, but ddnt tink i had animore cash.
den we went home.!
D to da D, D to da I, D to da A.
hahahaha. D to da I, wat a nick on msn,
'im sry i crnt b wif u bcs i care abt her' [bt i short-form-ed it]
de kerazie pics wud be up on ma nxt post.!!
Friday, April 28, 2006 ; 2:35 PM♥
read faizal's blog js now.
smthin abt being broken pick up de pieces. . .
haha. kuul. yea its kuul.
but ma question is,
wud de someone come jus in tym.?
before those broken pieces fly away, is being misplaced, or gone jus lyk tt.?
wat will happen if de someone never comes?
wat happen if no glue is ever strong enuf tu stick those broken pieces bac tugeder.?
wat happens if its not broken, instead its shattered, totally.?
wud anione ever wana cum n stick em bac tugader.?
won't it be tough.?
okie, maybe im jus thinking too negatively.
well maybe mine is not broken, neither is it shattered.
but it was carved on, too deep, too much bleeding, too long to heal, too huge a scar, too, too,
TOO DRAMA-ABLE.!
haha
okie wteve wif tis, i'll jus leave it tu be commented on.
wt du YOU think.?
im too negative.?
im too drama-able.?
im too, too watever.?
n, n will dere seriously be someone hue will come.?
n will it be in time, before de pices r blown away.?
smthin abt being broken pick up de pieces. . .
'If you're heart is broken, sweep up the pieces.
There will always be someone who will want to put it back together.'
There will always be someone who will want to put it back together.'
haha. kuul. yea its kuul.
but ma question is,
wud de someone come jus in tym.?
before those broken pieces fly away, is being misplaced, or gone jus lyk tt.?
wat will happen if de someone never comes?
wat happen if no glue is ever strong enuf tu stick those broken pieces bac tugeder.?
wat happens if its not broken, instead its shattered, totally.?
wud anione ever wana cum n stick em bac tugader.?
won't it be tough.?
okie, maybe im jus thinking too negatively.
well maybe mine is not broken, neither is it shattered.
but it was carved on, too deep, too much bleeding, too long to heal, too huge a scar, too, too,
TOO DRAMA-ABLE.!
haha
okie wteve wif tis, i'll jus leave it tu be commented on.
wt du YOU think.?
im too negative.?
im too drama-able.?
im too, too watever.?
n, n will dere seriously be someone hue will come.?
n will it be in time, before de pices r blown away.?
; 12:16 AM♥
here is a mxg to ol those hue think(s) tt dey r in LOVE.
FIND OUT DE TRUTH abt tt person u r 'loving' BEFORE THINGS GETS WORST.!
haha.
i hate myself fer not doing tt.
well at least i ddnt fall a great hight.
laa.!!
hehehe.
okie fine im jus acting it out.
some cracks are found.
TIS IS PLAIN STOOPIDITY.!
bloody shit
ouh well wat i can sae.
heehe. *de phrase is rong if u notice.
im lucky tt its not a great height.!
hee.
n tis is not particularly tu anione.
serious.
but b4 anithin,
if u hate smokers esp,
ask, ask ask n ask n ask n ask, tt person,
till he confess he does.
haha. if he realie doesn't smoke, u'll noe.
but serious talking,
NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.!!
okie finee.
its jus tt im too bored studing chem,
cudnt get anithin in ma bloody small brain,
went tu some bloggs,
found some blog,
found some truth,
stoooopp.
hahaha
serious talking, okie tis is realie realie serious.
I AM CRAPPING AWAY.!!!!!
gud nyt evribody.
...
FIND OUT DE TRUTH abt tt person u r 'loving' BEFORE THINGS GETS WORST.!
haha.
i hate myself fer not doing tt.
well at least i ddnt fall a great hight.
laa.!!
hehehe.
okie fine im jus acting it out.
some cracks are found.
TIS IS PLAIN STOOPIDITY.!
bloody shit
ouh well wat i can sae.
heehe. *de phrase is rong if u notice.
im lucky tt its not a great height.!
hee.
n tis is not particularly tu anione.
serious.
but b4 anithin,
if u hate smokers esp,
ask, ask ask n ask n ask n ask, tt person,
till he confess he does.
haha. if he realie doesn't smoke, u'll noe.
but serious talking,
NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.!!
okie finee.
its jus tt im too bored studing chem,
cudnt get anithin in ma bloody small brain,
went tu some bloggs,
found some blog,
found some truth,
stoooopp.
hahaha
serious talking, okie tis is realie realie serious.
I AM CRAPPING AWAY.!!!!!
gud nyt evribody.
...
n deep dwn, she's cracked.
and she is;
Sunday, April 23, 2006 ; 5:14 PM♥
gosh i olmost lost ma voice.!
now i sound lyk afta camp last 3 yrs.! haha
miss ma rock sista watie.
bth of us sound so rock-ish.! hehe
okie tudae is so suckky in religious cls.
i came late bcs i woke up late. ate but it was succky den had tu wash de dishes. succky again.!
den last period was oral, u noe how informal religious classes can be.
was suppose tu end at 3, but ustazah[female teacher] exceded til 3.o5. n bcs of tt, someone said 'sial', a bad word. ouh sharks.! we r lyk in religious cls ryt.? wts up wif tt.??
n our ustazah was angri n told ur tu stay till 3.30, but since she was kind enuf, we had tu stay till 3.15, even tt irfan wanted tu cabot.!
i was freakin pissed. de gurls were jus sittin witin fer 10 more minutes.
but not de guys, i min irfan esp.! its lyk de sial werd ddnt even came frm a gurl's voice.!
so y de hack muz de guy move off n de gurls wait paitently.??
hah.!
so pised off tt i shouted at dem wif ma rocking voice.!
de rest of em lyk sat bac bt not irfan. bleeeeek.!
lyk i care.! i min respect de teacher la.! dun care if u did it or not. jus stay its onie 10 freakin minutes.!!
yeah.? m i ryt.? responsibilyty mz b dere.! ustazh olrdy sae go home at 3.15, so jus wait fer10 freakin minutes, respect wt she said by staying bcs its ur own fault tt u said de word ryt.? okie fine it might not be u, but if she saes stay den jus stay.! stare at me summore.! stare la. think i scared issit.?!?! lek suaa.!!
bui kake [bodoh nye jantan in boyan][stoopid guy in boyanees language]
haha. okie fine lyk wteve. haha n lyk noone went out wif him so he sat dwn, bt not at his place. hahahaa.!!!
now i sound lyk afta camp last 3 yrs.! haha
miss ma rock sista watie.
bth of us sound so rock-ish.! hehe
okie tudae is so suckky in religious cls.
i came late bcs i woke up late. ate but it was succky den had tu wash de dishes. succky again.!
den last period was oral, u noe how informal religious classes can be.
was suppose tu end at 3, but ustazah[female teacher] exceded til 3.o5. n bcs of tt, someone said 'sial', a bad word. ouh sharks.! we r lyk in religious cls ryt.? wts up wif tt.??
n our ustazah was angri n told ur tu stay till 3.30, but since she was kind enuf, we had tu stay till 3.15, even tt irfan wanted tu cabot.!
i was freakin pissed. de gurls were jus sittin witin fer 10 more minutes.
but not de guys, i min irfan esp.! its lyk de sial werd ddnt even came frm a gurl's voice.!
so y de hack muz de guy move off n de gurls wait paitently.??
hah.!
so pised off tt i shouted at dem wif ma rocking voice.!
de rest of em lyk sat bac bt not irfan. bleeeeek.!
lyk i care.! i min respect de teacher la.! dun care if u did it or not. jus stay its onie 10 freakin minutes.!!
yeah.? m i ryt.? responsibilyty mz b dere.! ustazh olrdy sae go home at 3.15, so jus wait fer10 freakin minutes, respect wt she said by staying bcs its ur own fault tt u said de word ryt.? okie fine it might not be u, but if she saes stay den jus stay.! stare at me summore.! stare la. think i scared issit.?!?! lek suaa.!!
bui kake [bodoh nye jantan in boyan][stoopid guy in boyanees language]
haha. okie fine lyk wteve. haha n lyk noone went out wif him so he sat dwn, bt not at his place. hahahaa.!!!
Saturday, April 22, 2006 ; 11:34 PM♥
ouh gosh.! fer once i love ma skul. okie its de fez tym i sae i lve ma skul tis yr. haha. mummie,[vp] looked funnie, wif her hair n red tee. she led us wif de skul song, we sang, erm SHOUT, wif pride.!!
wuhoo.!! go go go west spring go we go we go.!!
yeah.!!
west spring ddnt lose face tu YI.! we've gt silver again.!! im soo proud of em, though i still tink tt deir disiplin is soo succky, de juniors dun respect deir seniors. n dey dun respect ader cca members usin de same dance studio. lyk ma dance team, hue were havin our 'meetin' tt tym, n dey wer lyk soo sooooo noizeyy.!!
despite askin de SIR tu ask em tu shut, dey made even more noise.! freakin em.
great job guiz. at least we ddnt lose face by not gettin bronze.
n here are some pics of tudae, n nyt. no offence tu those hue dont wan deir pic tu be here. tag me aights.!
wuhoo.!! go go go west spring go we go we go.!!
yeah.!!
west spring ddnt lose face tu YI.! we've gt silver again.!! im soo proud of em, though i still tink tt deir disiplin is soo succky, de juniors dun respect deir seniors. n dey dun respect ader cca members usin de same dance studio. lyk ma dance team, hue were havin our 'meetin' tt tym, n dey wer lyk soo sooooo noizeyy.!!
despite askin de SIR tu ask em tu shut, dey made even more noise.! freakin em.
great job guiz. at least we ddnt lose face by not gettin bronze.
n here are some pics of tudae, n nyt. no offence tu those hue dont wan deir pic tu be here. tag me aights.!
me in toilet waitin fer azzu.
azzu n kerazie me.
me n in.
me n in.jing yi n me.
candids..!!;
haha.!! last but not least,
me.!! wif ma filet-o-fish. cudnt afford de double fillet, maybe tmr.
; 11:52 AM♥
kerazie me
yes dearest Jing Yi, i did ran. but nono, i walked ol de wae n srted runnin at de dustbin part dere. ahaha
she reported sick fer me. n told me tu sit. she even scolded me bcs im too stubborn n kept on walkin.
yeah tnx fer caring.
afta de runn i went tu search fer jing yi, den cudnt find her. den go toilet, but cudnt fin her either. so went of to de bb court dere, n sat at de stairs. was too tired n too dizy so i cover ma face n closed ma eyes. i felt lyk i was a bout to fall, sooo dizzy.
nxt thin i noe, i was hit by a ball. de guys were playin soccer, at de BB COURT. haha.! funnie, playin soccer where pl r supose tu play basketball. hahaha.
n yea aniewae i jus sat dere, hackin care den tears rooled dwn ma cheeks. hah. dunnoe y. mayb bcs i've been holdin em dere long enif n dey crnt stand it anie longer n jus go.
n den cerenna was by my side. while aders were somere else, luffin away, she was bside me. i gess she's tired too.
den it was tyme fer recess. she helped me up. yea tt was kind. den i had hui min comin up tu me n said, wif her soft voice, 'nxt wik if haf nafa i runn wif u okie.?'
it is my pleasure.!
den ma dearest jing yi offered tu runn wif me too, den i said okie n said tt huimin oso said she'll runn wif me. den she said in tt case i go runn wif huimin cus she gt better stemina. n so i said okie.
wahh too long tu type olrdy.
den at nyt i wen tu skul wif azzu. n jing yi sat wif us. we did phy, cus phy test is on tues. on mondae we gt eng n ss. bt mrs ang saidit'll be compre wif out summary. n mr siva said it'll be SBQ. so i tot dun nid studie tt much. so we concentrated on our phy.
afta tt ma mader mxged me askin me tu buy food fer her. jing yi was too tired so she went home wif pei wen, jasmine, dey ol. n i wen tu banquet wif azzu.
waah. we waited fer sooo long more den half an hour. after wic we went nxt door. azzu had an ice kacang, n i had a chen ting. hehe. we talked abt our past tym, but tis tym we emphasized on sed 2 yrs, being de colour guard.
aww. i miss mr chong.!!!!!!!
i miss de flag.
i miss de glove, wic is still wif me.
i miss mr chong's voice,
'ah nvr bring glove ah.? aiya. nememine, use plster. atika atika, plaster plaster.' hehe
'i tink de gurls playin rifel ah, u better buy rist band ah. u spin spin rifle ur rist pain'
'lulu, lulu, come come' hehe
mann i miss him loads man.!
n we talk bout de tym wen we wer too lazy tu go intu de band rum n place de flaggs.
so wen at least 4 gurls wet up olrdy, de rest belo threw deur flgs up. hehe. lazy freaks.
i miss wee kiat, was it him?, goin down n shouting,
'BAND FALL IN.!! ONE, TWO THREE FOUR FIVE. ONE ROUND'
n wee would ol be lyk funnin tu fall in, if nt we wud be runnin arnd de field. hah.
but de CD wudnt care. we wer de slacker. but we produce results fast.! we onie join em on tt yr itself.
gosh i realie miss de OLD band. ONE BAND, ONE SOUND!! two band.? no sound.!! haha
but im goin dwn tu support em tudae aniwae,dey've trained in rain our shine, super shine sia. wif black summore.
okiekie. im wearin ma sec 2 tee wic has band rocks n one band one sound on it.! wohoo. im gonna shout de cheers lyk deres no tmr. im gonna scream till ma voice is gone.!
WSSS BAND.! OLL DE WAE.!!!! WUHOO.!!
tis pic is out of funn.!
Monday, April 17, 2006 ; 11:03 PM♥
tnx an fer trin tu cheer me up. but i gess nth helps.
i'll jus be tis wae its okie.
nvm la an. tnx niwae.
mayb its tym fer me tu cry again, tu release ol those frustrations.
i wanna scream ma lungs out.!!!
ive been wanting tu du tis.
de fez tym i planned tu go tu escape, it was held bac bcs of mizie.
de i wanted tu go wif ma siblings, n der was tis case abt some incidents happening at de theame park itself n mother was woried. held bac again. n de mac holz we wnted tu go again, but ma aunt was caught in an accident n we crnt possibly haf fun out dere while de aders r swellin their eyes, n aunt's in de ICU sufferin ryt.?
yea aniwae she gettin okier now.
i wana go. i realie wana go.!
i wana scream.! i wana shout.!! i nid a shoulder tu cry on.
i nid a warm hug.
n ol i nid ol tt i ever realie realie nid is a friend.
a someone hue noes me. puts up wif ma bloody mood swings.
hue understands me. whom i cn realie rely on.
hus not a backstabber.
hue dsnt leave me alone in de dark.
lyk tts alot.
bt at least one hue dsnt leave me alone.
i hate being alone.
tt realie is ma weekness.
an asked me tu smyl. yea no doubt i do everi single dae. i laugh n smyl everidae. but its no use. cus i noe deep dwn i side me, im not happy.
'im forced tu fake a smyl a laf everidae of ma lyf'
yea tnx an, fer helpin. at least u tried. unlyk some shitty ppl hue kol demselves fwens of mine. i gess nora cares even more.
nt sure if its true.
i'll jus be tis wae its okie.
nvm la an. tnx niwae.
mayb its tym fer me tu cry again, tu release ol those frustrations.
i wanna scream ma lungs out.!!!
ive been wanting tu du tis.
de fez tym i planned tu go tu escape, it was held bac bcs of mizie.
de i wanted tu go wif ma siblings, n der was tis case abt some incidents happening at de theame park itself n mother was woried. held bac again. n de mac holz we wnted tu go again, but ma aunt was caught in an accident n we crnt possibly haf fun out dere while de aders r swellin their eyes, n aunt's in de ICU sufferin ryt.?
yea aniwae she gettin okier now.
i wana go. i realie wana go.!
i wana scream.! i wana shout.!! i nid a shoulder tu cry on.
i nid a warm hug.
n ol i nid ol tt i ever realie realie nid is a friend.
a someone hue noes me. puts up wif ma bloody mood swings.
hue understands me. whom i cn realie rely on.
hus not a backstabber.
hue dsnt leave me alone in de dark.
lyk tts alot.
bt at least one hue dsnt leave me alone.
i hate being alone.
tt realie is ma weekness.
an asked me tu smyl. yea no doubt i do everi single dae. i laugh n smyl everidae. but its no use. cus i noe deep dwn i side me, im not happy.
'im forced tu fake a smyl a laf everidae of ma lyf'
yea tnx an, fer helpin. at least u tried. unlyk some shitty ppl hue kol demselves fwens of mine. i gess nora cares even more.
nt sure if its true.
; 10:19 PM♥
haaa.!!!
i crn't wait till nxt week.!!!
it'll be sooo funn.!!
nxt sat n sun, i'll be goin to somewhere in Johor, wif madrasah [religion skul]
to slaughter chicken.! hah.! learn how tu actualie, practically.! wuhuu.!! i crnt hold de xitement.!!
on sun dae b4 goin home, we'll be goin shoppin.!! wuhuu.!!
n not fergtin, we'll be livin a kampong life.!
for 2 days onie la.
but i'll be such an xperiance.!! i soooo cnnt wait.!
but still, before tt, it'll be common test.!!!! arrgghh..!!
but i'll studie hard n enjoi de kampong afta tt.!
wuhuu.!!
haha n ifan, apesaje la kau.
potong ayam.? hehe. blaja mlyu ke tdk nie ank.
n yea, it been days since i met tt guy again. though we stay in de same block.
ouh gosh. wen i dun wana see him, he appears. now tt i nid tu see his smyl, he is gone.
sish.!
studie hard ppl.!!
i crn't wait till nxt week.!!!
it'll be sooo funn.!!
nxt sat n sun, i'll be goin to somewhere in Johor, wif madrasah [religion skul]
to slaughter chicken.! hah.! learn how tu actualie, practically.! wuhuu.!! i crnt hold de xitement.!!
on sun dae b4 goin home, we'll be goin shoppin.!! wuhuu.!!
n not fergtin, we'll be livin a kampong life.!
for 2 days onie la.
but i'll be such an xperiance.!! i soooo cnnt wait.!
but still, before tt, it'll be common test.!!!! arrgghh..!!
but i'll studie hard n enjoi de kampong afta tt.!
wuhuu.!!
haha n ifan, apesaje la kau.
potong ayam.? hehe. blaja mlyu ke tdk nie ank.
n yea, it been days since i met tt guy again. though we stay in de same block.
ouh gosh. wen i dun wana see him, he appears. now tt i nid tu see his smyl, he is gone.
sish.!
studie hard ppl.!!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006 ; 11:28 PM♥
jing yi dear,
y cannot.? *post it here cus i tink tt its tooo long*
yea, y crnt i.?
yea let her see. let ppl see. let ppl noe how evil she can be.
n it didn't happen onie tis yr though, i srted long tym ago. she kept lookin, kept 'commenting' n kept laughing.! n im veri veri sad, angry, dissapointed.?
nvm, i'll strike it off. but i'll NEVER delete it.
omg.! m i being as evil as her.?
but shudnt ppl hu treat aders evil-ly be treat evil-ly too.?
u get wt i min.?
aniiwae, otw tu skul js now fer de nite clss, i met a gui. well i've met him loads of tyms b4, n i olways had tt hatefull look, lyk as if he realie is some evil freak. but js now, wen i saw hi, i was smyling. real wide.! tts wired ryt.?
yea n hes ma neighbour. he stays at de 12 story, i noe now tt we haf tt covers-all-story-lift. hmm.
but wen i think over it again, i figured tt de onie reason i gif him tt awful look is tu cover ma feelings. ..??
hehe.
he's lyk cute n ol. but i freakinly hate his mother n sisters.! they haf tt ouh-wteve-i-am-rich-so-dont-bother-talkin-tu-me look. realie.! hehe. atleast tts wt i feel.
n yeaaaaa. i cut-ed ma fringe.! nono. ma mader cut it fer me.but i dun realie lyk it. but i gess its okie. i hope it wud turn out okie fer de cls fotoshoot.!
yeah.! at last we're gonna haf a yearbook.!
yes ppl, xe-WSSS KIDS esp. we're havin a yearbook tt everione wanted.
too bad u ppl left too early. hehe
okie i gess i'll get a flunk grade fer ma dnt test.! argh.! its gonna be soo embarrsing.!!
n yeaa mr koh's gona hlp me out wif ma practical.! cus im lyk de slowest,.? yea. slowest.
n he was shocked i gess. hehe
so will strike tt post, okie darling-est fwen of myne.?
y cannot.? *post it here cus i tink tt its tooo long*
yea, y crnt i.?
yea let her see. let ppl see. let ppl noe how evil she can be.
n it didn't happen onie tis yr though, i srted long tym ago. she kept lookin, kept 'commenting' n kept laughing.! n im veri veri sad, angry, dissapointed.?
nvm, i'll strike it off. but i'll NEVER delete it.
omg.! m i being as evil as her.?
but shudnt ppl hu treat aders evil-ly be treat evil-ly too.?
u get wt i min.?
aniiwae, otw tu skul js now fer de nite clss, i met a gui. well i've met him loads of tyms b4, n i olways had tt hatefull look, lyk as if he realie is some evil freak. but js now, wen i saw hi, i was smyling. real wide.! tts wired ryt.?
yea n hes ma neighbour. he stays at de 12 story, i noe now tt we haf tt covers-all-story-lift. hmm.
but wen i think over it again, i figured tt de onie reason i gif him tt awful look is tu cover ma feelings. ..??
hehe.
he's lyk cute n ol. but i freakinly hate his mother n sisters.! they haf tt ouh-wteve-i-am-rich-so-dont-bother-talkin-tu-me look. realie.! hehe. atleast tts wt i feel.
n yeaaaaa. i cut-ed ma fringe.! nono. ma mader cut it fer me.but i dun realie lyk it. but i gess its okie. i hope it wud turn out okie fer de cls fotoshoot.!
yeah.! at last we're gonna haf a yearbook.!
yes ppl, xe-WSSS KIDS esp. we're havin a yearbook tt everione wanted.
too bad u ppl left too early. hehe
okie i gess i'll get a flunk grade fer ma dnt test.! argh.! its gonna be soo embarrsing.!!
n yeaa mr koh's gona hlp me out wif ma practical.! cus im lyk de slowest,.? yea. slowest.
n he was shocked i gess. hehe
so will strike tt post, okie darling-est fwen of myne.?
Monday, April 10, 2006 ; 11:54 PM♥
y de hell.??!!
ive been wanting tu post tis since last week.
last fridae tu b xact.!
guys, n i min male guys. u wudnt wanna read tis. so skip tis post n move on.
we had our NAFA, 5 items tt dae.
n fatin being her usual self looks, or shud i sae, OBSERVE, ppl running.
issit rong tu b observent.?
bla bla.!
wana noe wat she tokin about.? i min observing.?
people's breast.!
omg lyk wats wrong la.?!
ya.!
lyk ur breast is SOOO SMALL IT CANNT MOVE.!
y da hell.??!!!
yah.! u jelous tt u crnt haf de IDEAL size ryt.?
using all those paddings.! hah.
ppl notice tt u wore those la.
PUHLESE.!
dun fake it out lerr.!
lyk, EWW.!
n yes i dun haf sports bra.
lyk so wat.??
u think everiones dad is lyk urs.?
cann buy u things tt u want.?
ouh pls la.!
even if i wan those things, i won't ask fer em. cus i noe ma parents crnt efford it.
not even a new bra.!
ouh watever.!!!
n stop talkin about ppl's breast moving, UP N DOWN, or even left n right while dey r runnin.!
lyk y suhd u care.??!!
if dey bother u so much den jus close tt stoopid, SUPER OBSERVING eyes of urs.!
it shud b appresiated in one wae. not tu be laughed at.!
n yess.! ur laughter bothers me soo much.!
n yes.! i'll jus be on ma feet n walk off.
or i might even slap ur freakin uncontrolable mouth.!
maybe i shud get ppl tu observe urs n laugh at em.!
hah.! tt wud be so great.!
let u feel it.!
afte ol those laughing til u fall of de chair. or wat eve it is ur sitting on.
FCUK.! UR AN EVIL BITCH.!!!
; 11:36 PM♥
i wan 4 tutors cann.??
one fer eng. one fer math. one fer CHEM. n one fer geo.
n mayb one more fer ss & hist. n mayb de same one as chem for phy. but i'll concentrate more on chem.
cann? cann.?
haiss.
if onnie im a rich kid.
a millionair's child.!
oouuuuhh.!
den i'll go shopping everidae.
bring jingyi allong so she cud haf bought tt brazil shirt wif out usin her money, n not haf veri little cash left.
or maybe i cud buy her tt skirt she wanted.
or maybe buy her new contacts.
haizz. IF onie....
yaah. den i cann haf a new hp. wif new number, usin line tis tym
tok on de fone lyk nobody wud bother.!
den i cud go tu slimming centers.!
ahaha. den ppl wudn't luk down on me.
or kick me aside.
ahaha. it'll be such an xperiance.
den i cud olso wear fitting cloths.
buy nice nice accesories.
buy nice nice skirts.
nice nice shirts.
nice nice jeans.
oouuuhh.!!
how funn.!!
i might be cleverer.!
n yess.! i cud go tu da GYM.!
n work out. built up ma stamina. hehe
n PASS my 2.4.!!!
wuhuu.!
tt wud be veri veri cuul.!
den i can haf a new, WORKING mp3.
new cameras.! wuhuu. snap shots here n dere.
tt'll be so soooo funn.
IF oniee...
hais. ol tt wil onie b a dream.
a dream tt will nvr come tru.
unless i studie hard. get a super great paying job. grab oll de money in de world t i cann. wuhuu.! tt'l be soo great.!
go on holidaes, OUT of ASIA.!
ahahas.!
go onn shoping spree.!
go out, walk, shop, snap shots, EAT.!
haha. untill i drop. hais.
it wud so sooo funn.!
but i wunt frgt ma dearest fwen. jingyi.!!!!
hehe
if onie i haf ol de cash in de world.!
i'll spent ma tym shopping wif u.!!!
haha
it'll be soo funn.
maan, tis will never end.!
haha
but i realie wan 4 tutors.!
tts impossible, i noe. esp if i dun haf de cash.!
but i wan em.
at least one.
one fer eng. one fer math. one fer CHEM. n one fer geo.
n mayb one more fer ss & hist. n mayb de same one as chem for phy. but i'll concentrate more on chem.
cann? cann.?
haiss.
if onnie im a rich kid.
a millionair's child.!
oouuuuhh.!
den i'll go shopping everidae.
bring jingyi allong so she cud haf bought tt brazil shirt wif out usin her money, n not haf veri little cash left.
or maybe i cud buy her tt skirt she wanted.
or maybe buy her new contacts.
haizz. IF onie....
yaah. den i cann haf a new hp. wif new number, usin line tis tym
tok on de fone lyk nobody wud bother.!
den i cud go tu slimming centers.!
ahaha. den ppl wudn't luk down on me.
or kick me aside.
ahaha. it'll be such an xperiance.
den i cud olso wear fitting cloths.
buy nice nice accesories.
buy nice nice skirts.
nice nice shirts.
nice nice jeans.
oouuuhh.!!
how funn.!!
i might be cleverer.!
n yess.! i cud go tu da GYM.!
n work out. built up ma stamina. hehe
n PASS my 2.4.!!!
wuhuu.!
tt wud be veri veri cuul.!
den i can haf a new, WORKING mp3.
new cameras.! wuhuu. snap shots here n dere.
tt'll be so soooo funn.
IF oniee...
hais. ol tt wil onie b a dream.
a dream tt will nvr come tru.
unless i studie hard. get a super great paying job. grab oll de money in de world t i cann. wuhuu.! tt'l be soo great.!
go on holidaes, OUT of ASIA.!
ahahas.!
go onn shoping spree.!
go out, walk, shop, snap shots, EAT.!
haha. untill i drop. hais.
it wud so sooo funn.!
but i wunt frgt ma dearest fwen. jingyi.!!!!
hehe
if onie i haf ol de cash in de world.!
i'll spent ma tym shopping wif u.!!!
haha
it'll be soo funn.
maan, tis will never end.!
haha
but i realie wan 4 tutors.!
tts impossible, i noe. esp if i dun haf de cash.!
but i wan em.
at least one.
Sunday, April 09, 2006 ; 4:52 PM♥
n yeaah.!!
i min alhamdulilah
my aunt's out of de ICU n is in a normal ward. i gess. but we still haf tu put on oll yhose things b4 entering de room. esp de mask. haizz.
n she crnt speak. bcs she has a tube poked into her neck. haiss. i was down lookin at her.
but she is enjoing wif de air-con n de tv. n also de radio infrnt of her.
her hands are tied, jus lyk my late grandfather, bcs if not, she'll pull all de wires, includin de one at her neck, wich is actualie for breathing. n therefore, she crnt move her hand.
wen some songs were played over de radio, she hit her bed, making some rythems. hehe
kul.?
i was happie lookin at her now, unlike lst tym, in de ICU, where i crnt even c her face properly.
i hope she'll be better soon enuf n get out frm dere tottalie.
i min alhamdulilah
my aunt's out of de ICU n is in a normal ward. i gess. but we still haf tu put on oll yhose things b4 entering de room. esp de mask. haizz.
n she crnt speak. bcs she has a tube poked into her neck. haiss. i was down lookin at her.
but she is enjoing wif de air-con n de tv. n also de radio infrnt of her.
her hands are tied, jus lyk my late grandfather, bcs if not, she'll pull all de wires, includin de one at her neck, wich is actualie for breathing. n therefore, she crnt move her hand.
wen some songs were played over de radio, she hit her bed, making some rythems. hehe
kul.?
i was happie lookin at her now, unlike lst tym, in de ICU, where i crnt even c her face properly.
i hope she'll be better soon enuf n get out frm dere tottalie.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006 ; 5:08 PM♥
A 15 yr old was found dead in her bedroom by her sister who just came home from school. The secondary school student commited suicide at around 4pm, 2 hours before her sister found her.
Cause of death, suffocation via covering stuffing of objects in nose n motuh. Suicide note was found next to her, on the bed.
As it goes [language edited]:
Dearest mummy,
Im sorry that i went off before you without saing goodbye. Things never turn out well. I was never cared about. I wished I was never born-ed into this world. I wish I had died in your womb, mummy. I wish I was disabled and was detected before born, and you would abort me, mummy. I wish I never had to go to school. I wish I never knew my friends. I wish I never had to trouble you, mummy.
How I really wish I never have to go to school. I really wish that I would have never met those evil people whom I call friends. I really wish that I had met better people, who really cared about me n my feelings. I really wish that I never knew them.
After all those trouble I had gone through for them, I never felt their care for me, not even once. I even felt that I was what they saw as an irritating person. I tried to be a cheerful person who is likeable by everyone, as to not to be hated.
Why mummy? Why me?
I wish my friends had never introduced me to friendster. I wish I had never met him through friendster, mummy. I hate him. I hate him mummy. He played with my feelings. I hate him mummy.
Mummy, you said that friends are not needed in this world. Eventhough they are not needed, why should she treat me like this? Why must she betray me? Why must she stop my words? Why must she place her plams infront of my face and say, 'Shut up! I don't want you to explain.' Why mummy? Why?
I hate my life that is full of hatred. I am sorry to have go without your permission mummy.
I am very sorry. Please tell all my 'friends' that I am gone. Tell them, even if they cry till their eyes are red, I would never believe that they are really sad about this.
Yous sincerly,
****
All teenages, please note that this is a lesson for all of you who did not treat your friends with care. Some people are more emotional than normal people should be. Treat everyone that is around you with care and respect.
Cause of death, suffocation via covering stuffing of objects in nose n motuh. Suicide note was found next to her, on the bed.
As it goes [language edited]:
Dearest mummy,
Im sorry that i went off before you without saing goodbye. Things never turn out well. I was never cared about. I wished I was never born-ed into this world. I wish I had died in your womb, mummy. I wish I was disabled and was detected before born, and you would abort me, mummy. I wish I never had to go to school. I wish I never knew my friends. I wish I never had to trouble you, mummy.
How I really wish I never have to go to school. I really wish that I would have never met those evil people whom I call friends. I really wish that I had met better people, who really cared about me n my feelings. I really wish that I never knew them.
After all those trouble I had gone through for them, I never felt their care for me, not even once. I even felt that I was what they saw as an irritating person. I tried to be a cheerful person who is likeable by everyone, as to not to be hated.
Why mummy? Why me?
I wish my friends had never introduced me to friendster. I wish I had never met him through friendster, mummy. I hate him. I hate him mummy. He played with my feelings. I hate him mummy.
Mummy, you said that friends are not needed in this world. Eventhough they are not needed, why should she treat me like this? Why must she betray me? Why must she stop my words? Why must she place her plams infront of my face and say, 'Shut up! I don't want you to explain.' Why mummy? Why?
I hate my life that is full of hatred. I am sorry to have go without your permission mummy.
I am very sorry. Please tell all my 'friends' that I am gone. Tell them, even if they cry till their eyes are red, I would never believe that they are really sad about this.
Yous sincerly,
****
All teenages, please note that this is a lesson for all of you who did not treat your friends with care. Some people are more emotional than normal people should be. Treat everyone that is around you with care and respect.
Monday, April 03, 2006 ; 5:13 PM♥
Dearest Ms Siti,
I'm veri sorry tu haf let u down. I realie am. How i wished im never this lazy. lazyness had been filling up spaces in ma lyf tu da core.! i wana get rid of em. ALL OF EM.!! n i realie min it. but den it had became part of me. its soooooo difficult tu be remove. jus lyk part of ur flash tt is stuck tu ur nails, wen u wana cut ur nails, u carnt, cus de flash is dere. OMG.!! wen am i gona face up n push aside this lazyness.?? will i ever.?? Ms Siti, i realie am veri veri sorrie. i promis tu du ma veri best tu fight tis battle against the lazyness. n thank you for believing in us.
Dearest 'O' lvl cert,
How in de world m i ever gonna get de perfect you.? am i EVEN gonna receive you.? a full cert.?
im not doin well. slacking here n dere. onie opening up de text books wen test is nxt week, or worst, tmr.! i'm happy tt i ve olreadie srt on ma folio. yeah fer me.! but its realie not enuf. rumors were heard tt teachers wana gif up on me, us, 4C.! weeping in the coner, in silence, listening tu wat de teacher was saing. 'maybe we shud jus concentrate on those who score B3 to C6' 'den it wud be like ingnoring de whole of 4c' 'yeah, maybe we shud du tt, concentrate on de A n B' droplets of water form de eyes, MY eyes, were streaming down ma cheecks. y.? WHY IN DE WORLD.??? will their mind set ever change.? i wana prove tu them tt 4c can do it tu.! i wana do well too.! i will prove tu them, by doing every-single-homework given. i will. i promis myself this.
I, Nurul Atikah, promise myself that i will do all my homeworks to my greatest ability and do well in my 'O' level to prove to the teachers that a student from 4c can do well too.
There.! I will.! i sure will.! n i've learnt tt encouragement gives that extra push tu success.
Dearest 4C,
Please, please stop fooling around. We haf only got 23 weeks to spare before our prelims comes. tt is tu fast, tu fast tu be believed. i cannt believe it either. please stop playing a fool, stop making the teachers angry, stop making ms liew cry, stop allowing other teaching stuffs look down on us, on YOU. Stop all these nonsensical things. We don't haf much time. i believe that everyone of us can make it. all of us play a part, even a tiniwinnie part counts. we haf tu make ms liew proud, proud tu have a class like us. we haf tu srt behaving well in class. we can make it. ms siti believes in us. we haf tu make her proud too.
yours sincerly,
atie.
I'm veri sorry tu haf let u down. I realie am. How i wished im never this lazy. lazyness had been filling up spaces in ma lyf tu da core.! i wana get rid of em. ALL OF EM.!! n i realie min it. but den it had became part of me. its soooooo difficult tu be remove. jus lyk part of ur flash tt is stuck tu ur nails, wen u wana cut ur nails, u carnt, cus de flash is dere. OMG.!! wen am i gona face up n push aside this lazyness.?? will i ever.?? Ms Siti, i realie am veri veri sorrie. i promis tu du ma veri best tu fight tis battle against the lazyness. n thank you for believing in us.
Dearest 'O' lvl cert,
How in de world m i ever gonna get de perfect you.? am i EVEN gonna receive you.? a full cert.?
im not doin well. slacking here n dere. onie opening up de text books wen test is nxt week, or worst, tmr.! i'm happy tt i ve olreadie srt on ma folio. yeah fer me.! but its realie not enuf. rumors were heard tt teachers wana gif up on me, us, 4C.! weeping in the coner, in silence, listening tu wat de teacher was saing. 'maybe we shud jus concentrate on those who score B3 to C6' 'den it wud be like ingnoring de whole of 4c' 'yeah, maybe we shud du tt, concentrate on de A n B' droplets of water form de eyes, MY eyes, were streaming down ma cheecks. y.? WHY IN DE WORLD.??? will their mind set ever change.? i wana prove tu them tt 4c can do it tu.! i wana do well too.! i will prove tu them, by doing every-single-homework given. i will. i promis myself this.
I, Nurul Atikah, promise myself that i will do all my homeworks to my greatest ability and do well in my 'O' level to prove to the teachers that a student from 4c can do well too.
There.! I will.! i sure will.! n i've learnt tt encouragement gives that extra push tu success.
Dearest 4C,
Please, please stop fooling around. We haf only got 23 weeks to spare before our prelims comes. tt is tu fast, tu fast tu be believed. i cannt believe it either. please stop playing a fool, stop making the teachers angry, stop making ms liew cry, stop allowing other teaching stuffs look down on us, on YOU. Stop all these nonsensical things. We don't haf much time. i believe that everyone of us can make it. all of us play a part, even a tiniwinnie part counts. we haf tu make ms liew proud, proud tu have a class like us. we haf tu srt behaving well in class. we can make it. ms siti believes in us. we haf tu make her proud too.
yours sincerly,
atie.
