in primary sch, i find no fwen.
dey hated me, i think. i ddnt noe y at fez, but two of em later told me tt i was childish, somehow.

i didn't realise tt. but at least dey wer being frank n told wt dey lyk n wt dey ddnt abt me. n so i cud fit better. not xactly changing me, but duing it fer me. for good.
thanx to Fairuz n Anizah. but nth much happened, cus it was in pri 6 wen dey told me tt.

i realised i had no best friends. i realise i was okie to everyone. but xaptionalie cls to Nurshah in pri 1. she was de best. she is such a clever gurl. n der was Haslindah, one of de cls ones too. I rmmbred we came late fer our 'self-defence' kls. hehs. tt ws in pri 4, den she shifted sch. n not fergting Maznah, wen we wer in pri 1. de 4 of us wer super cls in pri 1. but our standard of 'cleverness' brought us to different places, esp Haslindah wen she shifted sch. tt sweet gurl.

i felt de most hatred in pri 5. ouh yes, i was super obese. haha.! veri faaat.! tt was de reason i gess. but apart of being obese, i was childish, lyk wt de bth of em said. i tried tu reflect, but it got me nowher.

in pri 6, i was cls to olmost everi gurl ONLY. i spoke tu no gui, xapt fer de ones sitting near me. i was very cls tu Feng Yu. I rmmbr having de difficulty of pronouncing her name. it is realie tough lor. but i lyked her aniwaes. she saves me wen i ddnt du my werk, n she hlps me wenever Ms Tan scold me, cus i ddnt bring my homewerk. haha SEE, I WAS OLREADIE SUCH A LAZY GURL.! hehe.

but sec 1 came n evrythin turned arnd. i had great friends.! ol tu whom i cud talk to. funnie ones, clever ones, neardy ones. haha i was a nerd too bac den. bringing everything tu sch, caring big BIGG bags to sch. haha tt was onie fez half of sec 1 lyf.! den i was okie, until now. n i realie haf tu thank Mr Soh n Mr Raj hue TEKAN me to go fer TAF tranings. haha. bac in GRP, even if we cabot, de teacher wont run after us. haha.
tt was y i grew even fatter every year.!
haha

Nurul Atikah bte Sari
as in da IC/BC
Atie is seriously preferred
turninged 7-teen
4-teen december 9-teen9ty
mood-swing--er
grps; wsss; rp-pharmaceutical sci