Today is so bloody shitty.
Though I was smiling.
It was fake. FAKE OKAY.??!!
it was really shitty.!
it all srted when math lesson was abt to srt.
Chin Chuan had to sit beside me, so I had to clear de table, thus I stood up to do it.
but I cud not stand properly so I push ma chair back. den it hit Enoch's leg. den I lift de chair n put it properly so it wont hit his leg again. den he kicked my chair, which caused me to almost fall. fcuk.!
of cus I was mad. den I srt blah2-ing. den Gerald, being an xtra scolded me. he said it wasn’t nice to scold ppl anyhow. this caused me to be even mad-er.! uh. lyk he was de one hu scold ppl onie how lor.!
lyk I dun scold ppl just lyk tt, wifout any reason. y in de world shud I be unreasonable.? stupid right.?
I was so mad I srted to blah2-ing again. this tym jingyi told me to control. lyk I can’t somehow. n I felt so bad n so something, jus felt lyk going to da toilet n let it out.
when ms liew srted her lesson, I was okay-er.
den came phy. de last lesson of de day. somehow de class wasn’t interested to listen, what more to learn. was so bloody pissed. now tell me, how can I concentrate.? lyk practical is only 4 days away la.! wt de hell is wrong wif dem.? I tried not to give a shit about it n tried to listen to ms lai, but to no avail. I really felt sad. I really wanted to cry at tt point of tym. I really cud not take it. I cud not make out wt ms lai was saying, which lead to not understanding de rev quiz 2 qusns.
up next dnt. so bloody tired did felt lyk going. asked king to hlp to put ma folio at de workshop while I go to da canteen.
heard some commotions, was lyk dey kicked de folio. worst case, it isn’t mine. I was at de 3rd level at tt tym. I ran to da toilet n let it all out. couldn’t stand it any longer. was so pissed. cried till my eyes were hot n red. cud really feel de heat.
I went off wif my eyes very red. reached de canteen wif ppl looking at me, eyes in particular. bought a drink. went to naq. wanted to get de water in me, but H2O got out instead. talked to naq in de toilet. but I guess I was jus too emo. I know she is going thru de same thing.
went to da workshop. Worst-case scenario. saw folio under king's bag, put da bag away, and saw folio spoilt. de cover had a big tear. it wasn’t even mine. I called king n asked him to explain. he koled Angelo. Angelo said he tripped otw down de stairs n de folio fell. he accidentaly stepped on it. I couldn’t take it n shouted at dem. tears flow n I went to da toilet again, hiding myself. hate to do it but I had to. den, de aunty came. she spoke some simple mandarin saing tt she wanted to clean de toilet. went out of de cubicle n said sorry.
went back to da workshop, told king to tell teacher tt I wasn’t feeling well n tt I wanted to go home.
took my things, den went up to da art room to inform naq tt I was going home.
at de bus stop, fid n aten were der, didn’t wan to face dem actually, but I really wanted to get home.
took a bath, call my aunt to see how she was doing, ate de fried rice my mum fried, den got ready to go study wif naq.
I did quiz 10 n qsn 2 of quiz 9 again. study a bit of phy den went home.
Angelo mxged when I was studying. he really sounds so innocent. hmm. I told him it was partly my fault n forgave him.
do u think tt I really have a bad case of mood swing.? well I think I do. n I think I forgave ppl too easily. hmm.
now this bloody internet connection is playing shit wif me.
thank god if this post is able to be post.!
hlp me control ma mood swings.?
